feeling resigned

I realized a couple days ago that I've been feeling pretty resigned. I've been pregnant before, and every time it's been a few weeks of excitement followed by extreme disappointment. Even though I have no reason to think things aren't going well this time, it's almost like my mind is telling me "you've had your fun, but now it's time to say goodbye to this experience, because that's what happens with pregnancy." How sad that I have to miss out on the 40 weeks of excitement and anticipation that other women get to experience! I hope that we can just get past the next few weeks...if we can make it to the second trimester, maybe then I'll get my excitement back again.