please allow me to vent

I am so tired!!!! Rose woke up every 60-90 minutes last night. Twice Mike got up to rock her, and once I got up to feed her - the other times she got herself back to sleep after about 10 minutes of 1/2 talking and 1/2 crying. Then she woke up around 5:15 (right before my alarm went off) and I knew I wouldn't have time before work to feed her and then to pump, so I had to feed her while simultaneously pumping. It was miserable and exhausting. I don't know what's going on with her. My google searches suggest that she is either (a) teething (yep), (b) going through a growth spurt (wouldn't surprise me), (c) frustrated that she can't practice a new skill all the time (sitting up?), (d) not wanting to miss out on any fun time with her parents (ha! we were no fun in the middle of the night!), or (e) about to reach a developmental milestone (finally rolling over?). I'm just praying that this ends soon. I am reminded anew that when I am sleep deprived I get grumpy and have hugely impaired attention/concentration. My processing speed is also slowed, so I perpetually feel like I have "the stupids" in that my brain is just not clicking like it should. I'm miserable!

And to top that all off, we still don't know how much it will cost to repair my car window. And I need to come up with my 2013 work template, but I'm having a hard time because three major meetings haven't been pinned down yet and I don't know if I'm still going to be breastfeeding and thus having to fit in pumping breaks! I am just paralyzed by indecision and avoidance right now. I'm pretty sure this would all be easier if I could just take a quick nap, just as Rose is probably (hopefully?) doing right now. I think this is the first time I've ever (half) seriously wished that I were a SAHM.  Sigh.

But to end on a happy note, here is a picture of Rose in a grocery cart for the first time, in case anyone missed it on facebook this weekend.