thanks, Mom

As I'm sitting here spending some quality time with Bertha (my pump), I thought I'd provide you all with an update.

My mom always knows the best thing to say. After reading my blog post from yesterday, she responded via email with:

It's exhausting to be weighing the pros and cons over and over.  Stop thinking for a minute.  Take some deep breaths and let the answer come to you very slowly.  And if the answer doesn't come, then just continue to be relaxed and know you don't need to make any decisions yet.  Take time to check in occasionally until you know.  Meanwhile relax your mind and tell yourself that perfect timing is at work in your life.

Love ya,

Mom

Isn't she the best?

I also talked with Mike last night, and I'm happy to say that I now have a plan. Right now I'm shooting to breastfeed and pump through the end of the year, weaning off the pump by Jan 1 so I don't have to keep this up at work anymore once my new schedule is in place for 2013. That's the plan for now, but I'll keep checking in with myself to see if it needs to be revised at all in the upcoming weeks/months. Whew. Such a relief to not have to agonize any more - learning to be flexible with my planning is hard work! (And it's made that much harder when I'm sleep deprived and not thinking clearly!)


And now, your moment(s) of zen:

 (Miss Rose was basically awake from 3:30am to 5:00am straight! Booooo!!!)