spotting

I'm getting so tired of waiting! It feels like September 9th and 19th will never get here. I know nothing is ever guaranteed, but it will mean a lot to (hopefully) get well past 8 weeks.

The last week or so has been especially difficult because I've had spotting (very little, very intermittent, and very brown - but spotting nonetheless) since I woke up on Sunday morning. This never happened during the first pregnancy/miscarriage, but it happened off and on for about two weeks during the second. I'm trying really hard not to freak out, because of course my first thought is that blood must be bad, especially since it happened during our second pregnancy/miscarriage.  Mike made a good point that my body was doing the right thing last time and we know we only lost that baby because of a fluke genetic abnormality. So maybe this (spotting) is just what my body does when things are going well???

I called my doctor's office (the RE) on Monday morning just to be sure and I spoke to the nicest nurse ever. She reassured me that spotting happens in 20-40% of healthy, full-term pregnancies, and that over 50% of women with spotting go on to have a healthy, full-term pregnancy. I told her Mike's theory and she thought that was totally reasonable, which is reassuring.  Nevertheless, she offered to let me come in and retest my hcg levels and/or have another u/s,  but she pointed out that doing either of these options wouldn't change anything - this pregnancy is either going to take or it isn't, and there really isn't anything I can do about it at this point. So I opted not to go in (unless things get worse, which thankfully they haven't), and now we're just continuing to wait for our next scheduled u/s on Sept 9.

I really want this pregnancy to stick.