I find it really hard to believe that we're done with week 20 tomorrow! Half way - whew! (Although, not really halfway if you think about the fact that you don't know you're pregnant until after 4 weeks. So really, hitting week 22 would be the halfway point of knowing that I'm pregnant.)
Anyway, I still keep waiting for things to really seem real. I'm more open to talking about pregnancy with people (early on I was afraid to say anything for fear of jinxing it), but I still feel like we have all these milestones to pass. First it was getting pregnant. Then staying pregnant past week 8. Then finishing the first trimester. Now it's getting through our big ultrasound on Friday. Then it will be getting past week 25, when my coworker lost her baby. Then getting past week 28-30 when baby will be "viable." Then getting to week ~37 to be full term. Then keeping baby alive after s/he's born. Then all the anxieties about parenting.....
So maybe there is no time when the anxiety goes away? At least I'm thankful that my anxiety has decreased (marginally) since the early days. Although I would feel a lot better if I could feel movement! (My doctor says it looks like I have an anterior placenta, so I may not be able to feel anything until week 22-25. Ugh!) Right now it just feels like I've eaten several very large dinners in a row.
So if you see me, please tell me that I have a cute baby bump, because that will help reassure me. And if you have any spare "good vibes" to send our way for Friday, that would be much appreciated as well!
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I'm sending lots and lots of good vibes, and prayers, can't have too many of those! You're going to be such great parents. Of course, you might know too much, ha! Enjoy the pregnancy, it's real.
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